I was completely terrified; I had never done anything like this before. The pianist handed me a song to sight read for the audition. I quickly viewed the piece and the music started. "Rocky Top", I 'll never forget it. It was one of the most memorable times. Auditioning for Carowinds to be a show person was a pretty big deal. I think I did ok with the vocals, but the dance number; WELL! We had to memorize a numerous amount of choreography within minutes and then perform a few at a time; Vibology by Paula Abdul. Needless to say I did not make it; thank God!, but it was fun to try out, new experiences and all.
fear–noun
| 1. | a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid. |
Whether the threat is real or imagined - my fear has always been pretty real feeling. Like the time I couldn't speak and say my vows at the wedding and the pastor had to repeat them; or when I almost passed out. Or, like the time we had our first child and I looked to see my first born cut out and my wife's womb stretched for miles. Or, like the time I lost my wife's dog, because the darn dog had Alzheimer and forgot what door to come back to on our home and found her way a half mile at the neighbors. Or, when the lady stopped and asked me if I had a small brown dog - and then tells me she just hit it with her car - another event on my watch.
Well, the Bible tells us He does not give us a spirit of fear in 2 Timothy 1. He also states that we should not place any confidence in the flesh; Philippians. "The Lord is my light and my salvation-whom shall I fear?" Psalm 27:1
Wow! If we place our just in God and never fear man, oh what we could accomplish.
Hear is one I have recently experienced; "There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love". 1 John 4:18.
Like when the pastor and the deacon board of your church asks you and your wife to meet with them so they can encourage you and pray over you and speak the power of God over your life. Yeah, WOW! Talk about perfect love casting out fear - Satan HATES that.
Unfortunately, after an experience like that your human side kicks in and says, "OK, the Lord is getting you ready for something else in your life" it's always about God! He gives you a lot of healing and he expects a little step closer to Him.
Well, hear I am again scared of what God wants to do in my life. I guess I better get serious since he again fulfills his Word and now the balls in my court.
Prayer:
Lord, help me to understand and live in the knowledge of your word. Also help me to remember the definition of the word - Whether the threat is real or IMAGINED - Fear.
